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| User: | lilithviolette (4525954) Life Viewed from These Pisces Eyes
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| Bio: | Find me here: http://www.findagoth.com/users/Jen And here: http://www.myspace.com/miss_petite_creme_brulee Jennifer~The Eurythmics Jennifer with your orange hair Jennifer with your green eyes Jennifer in your dress of deepest purple Jennifer - Where are you tonight? Jennifer - Where are you tonight? Underneath the water....Underneath the water PISCES (Feb. 19-March 20): "What I give form to in daylight is only one percent of what I have seen in darkness," wrote the artist M.C. Escher. Though he wasn't a Pisces, he could have been speaking for you and your tribe when he said that. You are the zodiac's top explorer of the darkness; you're a connoisseur of vivid and exotic mysteries that are often hard to translate into terms other people can understand. And though I know you must sometimes feel sad about how much of your experience is hidden, you should feel proud if you can, like Escher, bring even one percent of it alive in the sunlit realms. Name: Lilith Violette March 17 1981 5:30 PM Time Zone is EST Jacksonville, FL Rising Sign is in 13 Degrees Virgo You tend to be very shy and not very self-assertive. You are supercritical about how you appear to others. Even though you may think you are uninteresting and dull, you are actually quite soft- spoken, orderly, neat and very likable. You are a perfectionist with high standards, and at times you can be quite tactless in pointing out the faults of others. Very practical, efficient and purposeful, your appearance and bearing reflect your need to appear graceful, sensible and reserved. You have a crisp, no-nonsense approach to dealing with others. Never lazy or self-indulgent, you tend to be dedicated to the work ethic. Sun is in 27 Degrees Pisces. Extremely sensitive and emotional, you absorb the emotions of others (whether positive or negative) like a sponge. Emotionally vulnerable, you are easily upset and tend to cry readily. You are at your best when you can structure your environment in such a way that you are surrounded by positive, upbeat people. You are very helpful and understanding of the needs of others. Indeed, at times this can be a disadvantage, because you can be a sucker for anyone who needs help. Shy, dreamy, romantic in nature, you delight in retreating into your private fantasy world. Just be careful that you do not get lost in it! Trust your intuitions -- you may be quite psychic. Moon is in 26 Degrees Leo. You always want to be proud of yourself and will never do anything that will make yourself look bad. You need the respect and admiration of others and enjoy attracting attention to yourself. Everything you do tends to be self-emphasized and self-exaggerated. Very stubborn, willful and independent yourself, be sure to allow others who are close to you the similar right to "be themselves." Your need for love, affection and reassurance, and your tendency toward vanity, allow you to have your head easily turned by flattery. The more insecure you are, the more you tend to be a showoff. You love games and sports as a matter of fact, you would usually rather play than work. Be careful of a tendency to be snobbish and uppity -- it does not become you. Mercury is in 29 Degrees Aquarius. You tend to be very opinionated -- you have strongly felt notions about things and are quite vocal about expressing and defending them. Yet you are also an original thinker -- you enjoy shocking others with your offbeat, original thoughts. You appreciate and need mental and intellectual stimulation. Your judgment is usually fair and impartial -- you can be a good critic because you can remain objective and unemotional about most things. Venus is in 22 Degrees Pisces. You have a dreamy, fanciful, romantic nature and a very creative imagination. Indeed, at times, your private fantasies are more appealing than the reality around you and it is difficult for you to leave them. You tend to be unselfish and giving in relationships and are extremely sensitive of the needs of others. Be very sure that those you help are worthy of your devotion and are not merely taking advantage of your innocence and naivete. Mars is in 00 Degrees Aries. You are very independent and self-assertive, and you have lots of physical energy. You are not satisfied unless you can be the first to do something. As such, you are more comfortable in leadership positions than you are as an underling. When you are challenged by anyone for anything, you delight in the competitive process and will fight long and hard for your beliefs. You are bold and courageous and often act without thinking. At times, in your zeal to get ahead, you are tactless and offensive -- learn that cooperation with others can often bring you nearer to your goals quicker because of the support you will get. Jupiter is in 06 Degrees Libra. You are generally good at balancing opinions and judging issues, but you tend to be indecisive when it comes to making up your own mind. You are objective and quite concerned with fair play and justice. But, when it comes to yourself, you are so aware that whatever you do might upset the apple cart that you often choose to compromise rather than do anything that might make you lonely or vulnerable. Relationships are very important to you -- you learn about yourself and grow through observing yourself interacting with others. Your aesthetic tastes are refined, but expansive and expensive. Saturn is in 07 Degrees Libra. Although you take quite a while to make decisions, you usually consider all sides to a question, all the pros and cons, and the solution you come up with is very often the correct one. You tend to be very reserved and shy, but, once you make a commitment to someone (in either a business or personal relationship), the partnership is forever. You have a strong sense of justice and fair play and greatly respect the laws and institutions by which you are governed. As such, you are outraged when others break laws or show contempt for authority. Uranus is in 00 Degrees Sagittarius. You, and most of your peers, have the tendency to think that all ideas, customs and traditions from the past are outmoded and irrelevant. You are attracted to radically new ideas, philosophies and religions that will, hopefully, cause sweeping changes throughout the world. Neptune is in 24 Degrees Sagittarius. You, and your entire generation, are heavily involved in investigating and idealizing foreign and exotic intellectual systems and religious philosophies. The most extreme ideals will be pursued with gusto. You will be at the forefront of humanitarian attempts to improve the lot of those who are in need of assistance. You will be comfortable with the concept of the "global village." Pluto is in 23 Degrees Libra. For your entire generation, this is a time of radical changes in society's attitude toward marriage and interpersonal relationships. There is a general fear and awe at the power inherent in making emotional or contractual commitments -- they will not be entered into lightly. N. Node is in 10 Degrees Leo. You prefer to take the leadership role when it comes to dealing with others. You enjoy administering and organizing group activities. Others tend to listen to your suggestions because you aren't usually overly domineering or patronizing in your interactions. You love to entertain in a big way -- you're at your best when throwing a large and lavish party. Your popularity and social success are assured as long as you don't take others for granted -- resist the temptation to become snobbish and arrogant.  From Liquid Diamonds~Tori Amos I guess I’m an underwater thing So I guess you can’t take it personally I’m liquid running there’s a sea secret in me it’s plain to see it is rising but I must be flowing liquid diamonds My Goddess.....Tori Amos   Goodbye Pisces~Tori Amos I don't I don't know why In your Boys life you become like a bull like a bull in a china shop Smash it up into smithereens There you There you go again Breaking Breaking porcelain Is that all I am just a Doll you got used to We've done We've done this before as Mars sauntered through his door Don't say it's time to say Goodbye to Pisces Goodbye to Pisces I cried and I washed my tears that turned into diamond Ice into ice and if it could freeze My heart wouldn't float away There we There we go again Breaking Breaking porcelain Is that all I am just a Doll you got used to We've done We've done this before as Mars sauntered through his door Don't say it's time to say Goodbye to Pisces Goodbye to Pisces So how how will I go Back on Back on the shelf with a smile with a smile to the customer and say on sale by the owner Here I Here I go again Breaking Breaking porcelain Is that all I am just a Doll you got used to We've done We've done this before as Mars sauntered through his door Don't say it's time to say Goodbye to Pisces Goodbye to Pisces Goodbye my Pisces Girl~Tori Amos from in the shadow she calls-and in the shadow she finds a way-finds a way-and in the shadow she CRAWLS-clutching her faded photograph-my image UNDER her thumb-yes with a message for my heart-yes with a message for my heart-she’s been everybody else’s girl-maybe one day she’ll be her own-everybody else’s girl-maybe one day she’ll be her own-and in the doorway they stay-and laugh as violins fill with water-screams from the BLUEBELLS can’t make them go away-well I’m not seventeen, but I’ve cuts on my knees-falling down as the winter takes one more CHERRY TREE-rushin’ rivers-thread so thin-limitation-dreams with the flying pigs-turbid blue and the drugstores too-safe in their coats anda in their do’s yeah-smother in our hearts- a pillow to my dots-one day...maybe one day...one day she’ll be her own-and in the mist there she rides-and castles are burning in my heart-and as I twist I hold tight-and I ride to work every morning wondering why-“sit in the chair and be good now”-and become all that they told you-the white coats enter her room-and I’m callin’ my baby-callin’ my baby-callin’ my baby- callin’-everybody else’s girl-maybe one day she’ll be her own... Spark~Tori Amos she’s addicted to nicotine patches she’s addicted to nicotine patches she’s afraid of the light in the dark 6.58 are you sure where my spark is here, here, here she’s convinced she could hold back a glacier between cotton balls and xylophones but she couldn’t keep Baby alive I'm getting old doubting if there’s a woman in there somewhere here, here, here you say you don’t want it again and again but you don’t really mean it you say you don’t want it this circus we’re in but you don’t you don’t really mean it you don’t really mean it if the Divine master plan is perfection swing low maybe next I’ll give Judas a try swing low, sweet chariot trusting my soul to the ice cream assassin here, here, here you say you don’t want it again and again but you don’t really mean it you say you don’t want it this circus we’re in but you don’t you don’t really mean it you don’t really mean it how many fates turn around in the overtime ballerinas that have fins that you’ll never find you thought that you were the bomb yeah well so did I say you don’t want it say you don’t want it say you don’t want it again and again but you don’t really mean it say you don’t want it this circus we’re in but you don’t you don’t really mean it you don’t really mean it she’s addicted to nicotine patches she’s afraid of the light in the dark 6.58 are you sure where my spark is here, here, here.  My Religion....Edward Ka-Spel of The Legendary Pink Dots and The Tear Garden  A Velvet Resurrection~The Legendary Pink Dots I want to believe in the nobility of the human spirit. I want to believe that mankind is essentially good, and that the horror I see, and the horrors I hear about, are simply the last crisis of a dying spectre that has haunted our fragile globe for just to long. I want to believe that we are about to peel off the mask with which this spiteful god has been frightening us. I want to believe that we will not dance on his defeated rotting body, for that would grant him victory in death. I want to believe that we will peel away the masks with which we frighten each other. I want to believe that no new spectre will replace the one that died, and that we can stand alone... and respect one another... love one another... respect and cherish life in all its shapes and sizes while continuing to evolve. I want to believe that mankind will never be too arrogant to abandon it's quest for the ultimate answer. I want to believe that even I could answer this question. I want to believe all of these things.... But you caught me at a bad moment.....AND I CAN'T! Evolution~The Legendary Pink Dots If God was egg, if six were nine... If time was never measured, only killed in pleasure gardens of our making. If we'd never taken anything, but only given... If we could forgive, forget and rearrange the patterns. If you'd never thrown a stone or split the atom - ate the apple... if... If I'd stayed alone in shackles feeling nothing, seeing nothing in my head... If we'd shared instead of just collecting. If we'd never lived... If... If we'd ever... If we never never, never land but fly without a destination, cry without a cause, and lose ourselves for just a second at the beauty of it all... Then maybe in the next life we'd be dolphins. Nicole Kidman....My Obsession  SHE IS LIVING, BREATHING ART!!!  The Epitome Of "Artist"....David Lynch  "There's this beautiful ocean of bliss and consciousness that is able to be reached by any human being by diving within..."~David Lynch   Meat Is Murder~The Smiths Heifer whines could be human cries Closer comes the screaming knife This beautiful creature must die This beautiful creature must die A death for no reason And death for no reason is murder And the flesh you so fancifully fry Is not succulent, tasty or kind It's death for no reason And death for no reason is murder And the calf that you carve with a smile Is murder And the turkey you festively slice Is murder Do you know how animals die? Kitchen aromas arent very homely It's not comforting, cheery or kind It's sizzling blood and the unholy stench Of murder It's not natural, normal or kind The flesh you so fancifully fry The meat in your mouth As you savour the flavour Of murder No, no, no, it's murder No, no, no, it's murder Oh ... and who hears when animals cry ? The Spiritual Side of Jen  The Living Rede~ Brian Gallagher @ Pagan Wisdom.com A lifetime of learning I've set to these pages, Some learned from fools, and some learned from sages. This tome contains musings: some wisdom, some rant. Some will find truth here, some won't and some can't. If your eyes fall upon this page, it's meant for you, For the Universe offers what you're meant to do. The Secret of Magic quite often astounds: There isn't a Secret! Just look all around! The Trees teach you lessons - the Willow that bends. The challenge for you: learn the message it sends. By Example and Symbol the Universe speaks. It may happen quickly or take many weeks. Be aware what you notice - it needs your attention If you're going to hear what it's trying to mention. For the Universe rarely speaks loudly and clearly, But it speaks all the time if you listen sincerely. You're here for a reason - to heal, teach and learn. The better you listen, the more growth you'll earn. The goal, it would seem, is reunion with Spirit. Learn lessons while here, don't run from, don't fear it. Though we travel our own paths, our lives interlace. We must all grow together - this isn't a race. So be mindful of others, and help when you can, A bird, tree or pebble, a woman or man. Material, Ether and Astral involved, Work them correctly, your problems be solved. Magic is simple, has rules, like Mundane, Push or pull with your Heart and direct with your Brain. The Emotions you raise will determine its power. The more you project, that much sooner its hour. The Thoughts that you hold in your mind as you cast Tell the power its job - where to go and its task. If your thoughts falter or change while you work, Your focus is lessened - your power will fork. Dual aspects to work with, the God and the Goddess, Called Yang and called Yin - the names matter not, honest! Yang feels like anger - you feel in your chest. It jumps to the hand and for quick work is best. Yin is much softer - it's felt at the womb. The power of Love and the peace of a tomb. Yang is aggressive - Male "Get It Done Now!" If you're in a hurry, Yang does it, and how! Yin is more subtle, for delicate tasks. If you're working with love, it's the one you should ask. All genders have both, their intensities varied, And strong you will be with both energies married. Be Humble and True, though, whatever your power. Sometimes you're the lightning, sometimes you're The Tower. The Cards hold no magic, the Runes have no secret That's not found within you - if only you'll seek it. Negative or Positive? Sometimes you must give. The Antelope dies so the Lion may live. Remember, when tragedy breaks down your door: Whatever you lose, you will gain so much more. I know it sounds hard, when loss brings pain and sorrow, But you will know joy again - next year, or tomorrow. One thing that I've found, and I hope you will heed: Ask not what you want from life. Ask what you need. Ask what you want and it may come to you, But ask what you need: What you came here to do. This far through my Rede you have stayed and have read. Down paths much like mine you are likely to tread. I welcome you, joyful, a companion to walk, For someone to listen to, someone to talk. These pages are yours to accept or critique. May your road straight to Spirit unfold at your feet. Stay if you will, here, or leave if you must. Blessed Be, One and All. Perfect Love. Perfect Trust. Jen In Her Fetish Skin    AmI2Blame?~Razed In Black U say that I … Am the one that you lust The one U aim 2 please The one you’ll take a beating Get down on your knees The one you’re shy to trust Though allowed to do it all Your prince of thieves You beg and you crawl … U say that I U say that I … Your aphrodesia Subject of self-pleasure Force your subconsciousness to hide … U say that I bring out the beast within the porn star deep inside bring out the stripper, pimp, ho, slut … U say that I It’s like you’re cast under a spell I’ve placed upon you Unlike you’ve ever been before Tell me – Am I 2 Blame? U say that I … The one that U say Drown innocence away Transform the meek to sensual slaves U say that I … The one you call master The one I make quiver The one you beg you’re desperate in need And I crawl away As I fall (for you) Are you one to blame for this My best friend, my heart, my world! ....he's gonna change my name....~Tori Amos  Gorecki~Lamb if i should die this very moment i wouldn't fear for i've never known completeness like being here wrapped in the warmth of you loving every breath of you still my heart this moment or it might burst could we stay right here 'til the end of time, 'til the earth stops turning wanna love you 'til the seas run dry i've found the one i've waited for all this time i've loved you and never known your face all this time i've missed you and searched this human race here is true peace here my heart knows calm safe in your soul bathed in your sighs wanna stay right here 'til the end of time, 'til the earth stops turning gonna love you 'til the seas run dry i've found the one i've waited for the one i've waited for all i've known all i've done all i've felt was leading to this all i've known all i've done all i've felt was leading to this wanna stay right here 'til the end of time, 'til the earth stops turning gonna love you 'til the seas run dry i've found the one i've waited for the one i've waited for wanna stay right here 'til the end of time, 'til the earth stops turning gonna love you 'til the seas run dry i've found the one i've waited for the one i've waited for the one i've waited for...  My Spiritual Family "....we'll always be best friends.... something between you and me."~Hooverphonic Best Friends...Rachel(my karmic sister) and Tim(my gay husband)  Best Friends...."The Family" (SuperDave, Hope-E, Me, Ty, Nate-E, Xelana, and Tim) My *Family*  Best Friend....Rayvnn(my lil' Mavis Pennypacker)  Best Friend....Philip(my Poodle and karmic brother)  Best Friend...Jenn B.(my zsa_zsa fluggs)  Best Friend....Shanna(my lil' bumble bee)  My Muse....Madame Holiday/Bella of Disembodied Voices http://www.findagoth.com/bands/disembodied_voices http://www.myspace.com/daathgoetia http://www.dv-band.com/ ...but then she noticed me glance at her, I had no choice but to dance with her...~SWR  From Winterborn~The Cruxshadows ...And in our Dying We're more alive-than we have ever been I've lived for these few seconds For I am Winter born And in the fury of this darkest hour We will be the light You've asked me for my sacrifice And I am Winter born Without denying, a faith in man That I have never known I hear the angels call my name And I am Winter born Within this moment now I am for you, though better men have failed I will give my life for love For I am Winter born And in my dying I'm more alive, than I have ever been I will make this sacrifice for I am Winter born MY PRIVATE LIFE IS FOR FRIENDS ONLY! (Photos from my b-day party-March of 2006)   A special thanks to David Bowie for giving us our song.....  Space Oddity~David Bowie Ground Control to Major Tom Ground Control to Major Tom Take your protein pills and put your helmet on (ten) Ground Control (nine) to Major Tom (eight) (seven) (six) Commencing (five) countdown, engines on (four) (three) (two) Check ignition (one) and may God's love (lift off) be with you This is Ground Control to Major Tom You've really made the grade And the papers want to know whose shirts you wear Now it's time to leave the capsule if you dare "This is Major Tom to Ground Control I'm stepping through the door And I'm floating in a most a peculiar way And the stars look very different today For here Am I sitting in a tin can Far above the world Planet Earth is blue And there's nothing I can do Though I'm past one hundred thousand miles I'm feeling very still And I think my spaceship knows which way to go Tell my wife I love her very much she knows" Ground Control to Major Tom Your circuit's dead, there's something wrong Can you hear me, Major Tom? Can you hear me, Major Tom? Can you hear me, Major Tom? Can you "Here am I floating round my tin can Far above the Moon Planet Earth is blue And there's nothing I can do" | |||||
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